January 2010
87 posts
Psych and siblings
so i had the crummiest day yesterday, and my dance team was supposed to do a halftime performance at the high school basketball game. and a lot of my friends were going to come see me.
however. it is snowing.
so it was cancelled. but my parents were having a bunch of their friends over so they banished me and my siblings upstairs with ice cream and television. (thanks guys) . conveniently...
thoughts and stuff.
i feel like i’m carrying a backpack all the time.
and sometimes it’s easy to carry and there aren’t very many things weighing it down and i’m doing just fine.
and sometimes there are a lot of things in it, but they’re mine, and i’m used to them and i can balance alright for a while.
but sometimes people dump their stuff in my backpack and ask me to carry it...
“And i know that you’re a sucker for anything acoustic but when i said...”
– brand new ( mixed tape)
we get in screaming fights like this and then you...
all i want to wear is tights and a big t-shirt.
forever.
I don't like everyone hurting like this.
hahahah happy valentines day
i just did this thing on facebook where you click a button and it chooses your top 5 valentines. this is what i got.
1. Daniel S. (ex- boyfriend)
2. Jake G. ( youth minister)
3. Alex T. ( boyfriend)
4. Garrett K. ( cousin)
5. Aaron B. ( 8th grader)
i laughed so hard i almost cried. this could not be ANY more awkward. unless there was a Marcus O. on the list.
3 missed calls, 2 messages, 1 voicemail
i was thinking i was incredibly popular after school today….
all from my dear mother. :/
blah blah blah
blah blah kesha, blah schoolwork done. la la stayed home from school. ha ha called in sick to work gah gah 7th cold. :) i like you. he he house to myself. apppple juice. blah blah sweatshirts. hmmm dance tonight. my my head in a jumble. ta ta thoughts jumping around. well well movie time? uh oh. phone ringing
For all INTENTS and PURPOSES.
weird. i had never seen it written out and i’ve always thought it was ‘for all INTENSIVE purposes.” makes more sense this way…
um ok. i don't get it.
normally when i’ve been dating/ liking somone for about this long i start having second thoughts and trying to find loopholes that i can slide out of and my liking them starts to fade quickly.
so how come with you it’s not like that? in fact. i think i like you more now. this is odd. but i freaking like it.
I'd like to be able to be with you for once
where we weren’t worrying about someone walking in or feeling paranoid.
I found my CD case!!!
it’s been missing for 2 years. i about had a heart attack when i found it.
“Heartache healer, secret keeper: be my best friend, and you said ‘I am.’”
– Nicole Nordeman (via allcallheralaska)
i have this cd. for realz.
WISH ME LUCK!
i’m going to compete for a dance competition and i leave today. keep your fingers crossed please!
cheese muffin
i know that it’s dumb when couples say they’re in love after a day.
and i think that that is ridiculous.
but also…
i sort of like the fact that i live in a society that accepts and values love so much that people will pretend to have it, and strive for it. and believe that it can happen to them at any point. and that it can happen often.
i like that.
i like loving easily.
“dreams, dreams, of when we had just started things. dreams of you and me. it...”
– lily allen
going to chick A go tomorrow. huzzah!
dance competitions are incredibly stressful, but oddly fulfilling.
haha i seem to be really into short posts today....
I really love lily allen right nowww :)
she’s so funny.
You call me cutie, and babe, and beautiful
but you aren’t my boyfriend. and you need to stop before you cause problems
Ouch Ouch Ouch
too many tears
i’m tired of you all hurting me and then letting me heal and then as soon as i’m better you come back and apologize and it hurts all over again.
and i’m tired of having to be strong when i everything hurts and everyone is dumping all their crap on me
and i’m just so tired tonight.
i hate funeralssssss
I wish
for long conversations where you tell me secret things nobody else knows.
for full silences and star watching
for water and summer and sunshine
for barefeet and tank tops and jean shorts with boy shirts.
for laughing too much
for letters detailing feelings
for shared daydreams and smiles and glances.
for times that i remember forever as light
for scenes like in movies, and pictures in...
I can't stop coughing.
a new round of coughs comes every time i get done with the one before it.
my throat hurts. and i want you to turn your phone back on.
P.S. what the heck is your voicemail thing talking about? did someone steal your phone?
“ Baby it’s fact.”
Gosh Dang It.
i just want to see you . :/ is that so much to ask?
Colds and Finals and Too much dance
i’m so glad it’s almost the weekend and i have almost no classes tomorrow.
“I think it’s more interesting to see people who don’t feel appropriately. I...”
– Ryan Gosling (via chocolate-cigarettes) (via fussbudget)
Sooooooooo
Monday: school, school, dance performance, study
Tuesday: school, final numero uno, dance practice, study
Wednesday: school, dance practice, church, anna’s house??, study
Thursday: school, final numero dos, work, dance practice
Friday: school, dance performance
Saturday: work, babysit, see the boy???
Sunday: church, meeting, church. write paper. oy.
OK yes, i am glad tumblarity is gone
however, i feel a little bit lost. because i judged my tumblr self esteem by that thing and now i just have to wing it. haha hoorah for freedom!
“see the girl, as her own new world, though her home is on the surface, she is...”
