December 2009
61 posts
i wish everyone wrote a book in 1st person about...
i guess that would be called a public diary.
i guess that would be called a blog.
Sorry i haven't written in a while
i am reading a book called The Perks Of Being A Wildflower, amongst other things.
and it’s basically just the thoughts of this little freshman boy. and it’s adorable and so innocent and honest. and he thinks in a way that remarkably resembles my own thinking.
so i was thinking.
that people think a lot. and talk a little.
and the people that talk a lot maybe think even more. but...
So things are going really well these days. :)
but i miss my wife… :/
NASHVILLE BABY
a book you should read:
PAPER TOWNS.
it’s freakin awesome. read it. you won’t regret it. i pinky swear.
Downsides to having your sisters' college...
1. no hot water when you shower.
2. having to dress ‘boy’ appropriately at all times.
3. at any moment you may be walking in on someone kissing, which is always awkward when you’re related to one of the parties involved.
What's wrong with me?
i’m always sick or have some kind of rash or infection, i’m never well. what’s wrong with me??
why can’t i just be normal?
why can’t i just be healthy?
why does all this crap happen to me?
why is it all so weird?
i’m tired of it. so tired of it. and it’s freaking me out.
I feel empty.
dang karma. i always talk about how i haven’t thrown up since i was ten and had a stomach virus. and no one ever believes me. but i guess i bragged too much cuz now i have it.
it sucks.
and when i stand up i pass out. which is a tad problematic.
Beat Backbones, grazed the palm and made it...
Thank you
for the lump in my throat that hurts a lot
and the tear in my eye
and the clench in my jaw
you’re an ass
String and Wings
Lately i’ve been feeling like a butterfly.
and i just want to fly and live my life in the sky, enjoying the sun and feeling free.
but it seems like people always want to tie me down. to ask why i want to be up in the sky? and why don’t i want to be with them? and ties these strings around my ankles to anchor me to their reality. and why can’t i see? and why can’t i care...
Film the world before it happens →
Ouch
Tonight i feel like everything that everyone is saying is just cutting me down. It’s cutting down to sensitive issues that i don’t want to think about or talk about.
i’m not sure it’s intentional. but everything everyone says tonight is just bothering me and rubbing me the wrong way.
it’s like someone is poking my cut. idk. sometimes talking hurts.
I should buy a Tempurpedic.
fussbudget:
I’m tired of feeling this way. I’m tired of basing myself on test scores and homework grades. I’m tired of making myself feel like I have to be the best at everything. I’m tired of being surprised that I’m not. I’m tired of the fact that we don’t know where we’re taking this. I’m tired of people making me do things, and being passive aggressive til they get what they want. I’m...
I just love this song. it feels like me. →
Books i'm reading right now
1. Pride and Predjudice
2. The Death of Ivan Ilych ( by leo Tolstoy )
3. Donorboy
////////// i can't send question marks today/////
“We need a witness to our lives. There’s a billion people on the...”
– Beverly Clark, Shall We Dance
This is gonna be a tough 3 hours. →
I wish i could fly so badly
“Chock it all up to black holes”
– My lovely sara friend
I'm really sorry that i lied to you.
sometimes you catch me offguard and i can’t spit things out.
i wish i didn’t hide things from you.
Thank you Rob Bell
i am a human BEING
not a human DOING
i am more than what i can do, and more than what i produce
Legos
I’m building this tower
with lego bricks higher
to see just how high i can get
to see where i’ll go
and what i’ll acheive
and what things i need to forget
but some days the pieces just won’t stick together
sometimes some parts fall away
some days i see you
climbing the side of this
tower, barbed wire, facade
that i’ve made
and i shake my foundation
to...
“ And i want to have pride, like my mother had, and not like the kind in the...”
– The Avett Brothers
I really really want this
but what if it screws up absolutely everything?
i worry too much.
